105 packs of solid gold.

what's left of the stash.

just because.

, originally uploaded by erin roddy.

i'm not sure what it was about today that jump-started my motivation, but i'm happy it's back. maybe it was that jimmy johns finally got my sandwich right. let's just say that's what it was.

i managed to get a heap of stuff done today: packed up all my bathroom and kitchen stuff, cameras, boxes of polaroids, and boxes/packing material for etsy stores. i'm discovering i have less crap than i thought, which makes things a lot easier. plus, you know, still throwing things out as i go. i got a couple things out of storage- just the one's i could reach without spelunking gear. stuff in the way way back will have to wait til tomorrow.

i even took some polaroids today.
and inquired about a couple apartments.

and now i'm patting myself on the back.

i feel like everything is moving so fast around me:
move day getting closer
preparations being made
boxes stacking up
plans finalized

and all i can manage to do is lay in bed watching movies and be mesmerized by all the action.

i guess i'm just ready for this part to be over.
i'm ready to start again.

4.5 weeks.

hints and nudges: self sufficiency

i think i've changed my mind about 50 times today on a single subject.
things are upside down.
it's neither here nor there.
my eyes hurt.

a good day for:

kittens grooming each other
staying inside when it's 104 outside
catching up on news
thai
thunderstorms
making arm cozies out of old stockings
resumes

so i've got some new postards up on polaroddy.
more coming this weekend. yay!

i've had some hefty orders on lolabot, so today i need to re-stock my button stash.
and pack.
i feel like i'm doing well on the packing front. books, dvd's, cd's...check. framed stuff...check. winter clothes...check.
next stop: craft area. i'm a little scared.
but really, then all the major stuff is done. i still need to tackle the kitchen and storage area, and i'm sure almost everything i have in storage will be sold, given away or thrown away.
it feels really good to get rid of things.

also, we had this really crazy storm yesterday. it only lasted about 2 hours, but it looked like a hurricane- rain going sideways and buildings collapsing.

but then the sun came out and the weather was super nice the rest of the day.

weird.

not hungry.

finished reading sense and sensibility last night. wasn't my favorite by any means, but i'm really looking forward to the movie. hooray for netflix.

starting breakfast of champions tomorrow, and got another roadside attraction to back it up.

and (yes, still more...), i started the 7th and final season of gilmore girls tonight. i do realize that it was only a year ago that i watched it last, but still. it's a guilty pleasure.

i guess that's all. took jeff to the airport this morning- he's in D.C. this week for his fellowship orientation. so the house is quiet(er).

leah made me extra super happy today with surprise phone calls, mentions of "the vag," greek scientists, and the "i like to think that i'm still cool" commentary. it makes me more excited/less apprehensive of the move.

i'm not tired.

the old days are becoming new again.

""james dobson could catch her and lock her up in a baptistry." that's just a bad situation for everyone."

the mountains are coming.

"he was not an honest man, but he did a good job."

so. finally got my bumper fixed today. only, what, 8 or 9 months after the fact? and in a walgreens parking lot, no less. by a strange man that pulled up beside us and says "hey, want me to fix that bumper for ya?"

we did want that. and he did that. it was cheap enough to be worth it, and fast and he seems to have done a hell of a job.

as long as my bumper doesn't suddenly fall off, i'm a satisfied customer.

i often forget

how much i enjoy being upside down.
also secrets.

things you may or may not want to hear about your street.

1:30am
"i just passed, in one block: a hooker, her pimp, and a naked guy chasing a dog."

pikea

i feel a bit crazy.
which is to be expected, i suppose.
but this stupid thing that yesterday left me in tears (and not just regular tears- sobbing and whimpering and curled up on the bed tears), is today nothing but a slight setback and was easily fixed.

and i have a new bed.
and this new bed was brought home on the roof of a '73 superbeetle.
which is sort of hilarious.

just don't mention it yesterday.

it's been a remarkably frustrating day.
almost embarrassing.

then lola fell asleep on my leg and things got a little better.
i'm starting over tomorrow.

not a lot going on lately. which, i guess, might be a good thing. been watching a lot of freaks and geeks and season 5 of gilmore girls.

i'm trying to get some new images together for prints and postcards before things get too crazy.

i'm trying to organize and throw things out and give things away.

i'm trying not to fall apart.

it's going okay.

this helps:

i’m moving to colorado in july. alone.
details are sketchy.
i feel: sad, anxious, overwhelmed, excited, panicky, scared, exhausted, worried.

and life moves on.